Replies...

So, my Mother felt the urge to reply to my post, when it first appeared yesterday, on Facebook. Here's her response:

Your dad bought the shoes for me! and the Wow stuff. Your the one who moved up there away from me!! I didn't do shit to you..but you know what...I don't know you anymore ashli...and I don't think I really want to. Cause a child doens't turn on the parent..no matter what. What the fuck did I do to you to make you wish things like this?? oh and I ... See Morebeleave you and chance whent to the commic book convention..and the movies and such..oh and wait Shalyla never wants for anything...and I beleave you got the wow things as well...and even asked me to get you some stuff. then you trun on me like this... NO!! You will not control me with guild and your words...deeds speak louder and I did have the cake ready to be made..as a suprise..but you told me someone else was making it...you didn't ask for HELP from me...YOU LET OTHERS HELP YOU AND THEN ATTACK ME...SO PISS OFF KID...CAUSE IM BEYOND HURT BY YOU.
If you need me you can reach me through your sisters..but as of now...im BEYOND DONE WITH YOU!!!

i DID NOT RAISE A SEFLISH BITCH...I raised a beautiful loving careing daughter or so I thought. You want another mother...you can have one..I never knew how much you HATED ME!! till now....gee maybe i did do my job as a parent!

She also responded to something else i posted, which was basically a REALLY short version of the first post. I'll post them here.

Me:
Well, I saw this coming...I know my Mother only too well. She put off getting the bridesmaids dresses for soo long that when she finally went she couldn't find anything to fit Jacki, and black was all she could find for Keeli. So, it breaks my heart, but if I actually have my wedding this year, it looks like my sisters... won't be my bridesmaids. I'm going to go cry for a few hours now...

Her:
Thank you Ashli...for pointing out my faults because ur up set.. But if you will recall, I had to have the MONEY to get the dresses! Yes it is your day, but ya know once in a while your heart needs to be broken. Never mind the times that i have given and done for you. Oh maybe those times don't count!! I spent a year driving you to collage to make... See More sure you went only to have you play WOW during class, and then to drop out!! Just cause you had a baby! Never mind the fact that I have devoted my life to you AND your sisters and given you each the best I can! Sorry its not good enough!! It would seem that Im not a good enough parent to suit you or anyone else!!..Im sick and tired of you pointing out bad things about me!! Maybe if you looked into a mirror one day you would realize that most everything I did in life was for you! Not ONCE ASKING for anything in return other than to respect me as a parent and use a little understand at times and to know that I would do all that I can to help you or anyone else for that matter....AND now your sister need 1500.00 worth of dentle work done..and I have no clue about the other one yet. So give me a break!! I am doing the best I can!! And kido if its not good enough..to bad I at least know I tried!! Im sorry Im such a disapointment to you your stepdad your real dad, your gmaw...but walk a day in my shoes and see how long you last!! Life isn't allways going to go YOUR way!! Oh and you don't think your sisters wern't hurt that they couldnt' find anything that fit!! We tried little girl, but you wen't there to see them cry cause nothing fit or was the right color. Oh and if your not sure about a wedding then WHY all the cussing at me over things huh?!? I told you i would do what i could AND I haven't given up yet..but as usual you gave up on me. Best thing i can tell you at this moment...GET OVER IT!!! AND quit accusing me of ruining things for you!!

Me Again:
for the record, if I walked a day in your shoes, I WOULDN'T BE SCREWING THE WHOLE FUCKING TOWN. If you want to throw out our dirty laundry for all to see, let's do it. But the difference between you and me: I have some self-respect not to fucking flaunt that i'm screwing around on my husband. Make me look bad all you want. Say whatever the ... See Morehell you want to say about me. I lost all respect for you the day HE rolled into town and you stopped loving my Daddy. How can I respect someone who has no respect for themselves? What kind of example are you setting for my sisters? For me?

If you had a problem with what I said, you should have called and talked to me about it, not made yourself look like an ass on facebook. But, I'm sure, you're completely missunderstood.

Oh, and on another note, what's my dropping out of college have anything to do with this? I didn't drop out, because I plan to go back, but at least I went. I have an Assoc. degree, so I did decently well for myself. But, recall this, Mother, half the time I didn't go to work or class was because you didn't feel like driving me. Yeah, there were times when i didn't feel good, when I didn't feel like going, but there were more times I sat in my room and cried because I wanted to go and you wouldn't take me. So, in all honesty, we're both to blame for my college (or lack of) education. Maybe its my fault for not teaching myself to drive, getting a job during high school so I could buy myself a car, stuff like that. But I was dependent on you to be the mother I needed, and half the time you were, but there were so times you weren't, especially near the end.

When you had your mid-life crisis and decided to become 'young' and popular and whatnot, you stopped being there for all of us, unless you had to be. You've been slowly withdrawing from our family for the last 2-3 years now. We miss the mom we had. You were a wonderful mother, one of the best...And now...Now, i'm not sure about you anymore. You've become like the epitome of a rebellious teenager, and indignant to boot.

Also, let's refresh your memory a bit here. In response to you saying you didn't ask anything of me...How many times did you ask me not to tell my father you were sneaking around behind his back, calling your boyfriend all the time? You asked me not to tell him you took the girls and went to Missouri to meet a man who, for all we knew, could have been a crazy psycho killer and you were walking into your death? Do you even understand the amount of lies you've asked me to keep from my father? Do you understand the pain I went through? When you went to Missouri, did you even have any idea how you were breaking my heart? How much it was destroying me?

And if you did, did you even care? Or were you too absorbed in your own wants and desires?

But ya know what, its good you're living the dream. Please, keep enjoying yourself.

And on a side note: Daddy knows now, so I don't have to keep anything a secret. Don't expect me to, or even ask me to.

And please, throw in my face how I was unfaithful to Chance once. But the difference is, I feel bad for what I did. I made myself miserable for 2 years because of it. And you, you're reveling in what you did. You have no remorse for hurting my dad in any way.

And, to end this, I want to say I love you. And that's the reason i'm going through all this, the reason I've continually let myself be hurt by you. Wedding or no wedding, I just want my old mother back. I miss her so much. You were my best friend, I could tell you anything. We were so close.

I love you, Mommy.

Her Again:
Ashli there are somethings a parent doesn't tell their children, because they just don't need to know. Thats the difference between a parent and their child. I made my mistakes but didn't share them with everyone. I didn't abandand you or your sisters. You forget I was close to Stephanie and when we lost her, I did go a little nuts..only because ... See MoreI couldn't allways be strong for everyone, you were taken the baby to your in laws and such and living your life as I wanted you to do. I wanted to be independant and not have to answer to you or anyone else for that matter because there should only be one judge and jury of me when the time comes.

One person cannot do everything and be everywhere that they need to be all the time. Sometimes they just need some private time or quiet time..of which you ALL denied me of.

I finally figured you all were old enough and adult enough to let you be the people you were going to be.

But you should understand this..I never ment to hurt anyone or say anything to do so...cause if my actions had not effected me would I have not lost so much weight, and gotten sick with ulsers. But you wouldn't know that.

What goes one between me and your dad is just that between us. Im sorry i asked you to keep your silence on what you knew that it was wrong of me.

Yes i told your dad and we talked things out, we didn't air it on face book nor did I air anything on here to say otherwise. You call my defending myself a selfish act and that I look like an ass... maybe so Ashli but I never attacked you in a way that the world could see. Intent on ripping you appart while pointing out things.

I did call you but you never let me know that you posted you dissappointment in me.. but then you never knew the whole of the abuse that I suffered the first time around but its in the past just where its ment to be..but I took care of you and your sisters...never giving into the hurt i suffered that you will never know.

I admit im not the perfect mom nor will I ever be, my actions are mine alone in the fact i was always doing what I thought was right at the time and what everyone else wanted me to do..
I hardly let you girls see any hurt..only smiles and happyness...

Kido if you really talked to me I listened and such..but did you ever listen to me?? I will allways love you and your sisters as well as your dad..I always tried to do my best..but as you so wellly pointed out it wasn't good at all...

I do love you Ashli, I gave birth to you, and one day when your my age you will understand some things that you really can't or don't want to....and you will see things differently...

I can only take so much from the ones I love throwing names at me and saying things out in public for so long and still smile for people.

Im sorry I was such a bad parent and did what I did...But ya know what it made me happy weather it was good or bad. I have no regrets for any of my ACTIONS...on the regret of hurting others including myself...and that its all been aired on a public web site.

So i guess im not an angle anymore that my hornes showed all along.

love your mother