So, I was feeling pretty jacked-up sick today. My head hurt, my stomach hurt, my throat hurts. I can feel my tonsils swelling, still, even though its been hours since I woke up like this. I feel like anything I put in my stomach will be coming back to greet me soon...I would have preferred to stay in bed all day today, so I felt pretty shitty when I was playing with Shayla and stuff. I kinda wanted to be like "Robin, I don't feel good...You take Shay.." But I know, in the real world, we can't go around dumping our kids off when we don't feel good and want to sleep all day. Therefore, I've been up since nine thirty this morning. Not too bad, but I am gettin pretty tired.
I seriously was not looking forward to going to work. So I called in. Which didn't end pretty. I was told to 'take some medicine, rest, and come in anyway', despite the fact I told my manager I'd been throwing up. So, in the end, I ended up not going into work today, but I also ended up filing a 'silent witness' report. Which won't really be silent, because they'll know I did it. But really, He isn't supposed to say that, by law. Sadly, on the one hand, I really hope that they fire me for this, even though Chance says my job is protected. Its not that I don't want to work, or whatever. I just...I'm so exhausted. I want to focus on one thing at a time. Right now, I want to focus on Shayla, and becoming a better parent for her. Chance won't hear me out on this, or if he does, he still presses that I keep working. Which I understand. But I want to slack off my hours, so I can spend more time with Shayla. I'm scared I'm gonna work myself so hard and make my body and mind more exhausted than they are and not want to be with Shay when I come home from work. That's a really, seriously scary thought to me...
I admit I'm also scared of getting fired. I dunno how fast this report will go through or how long it will take for this to get back to my bosses...But...I did what I felt was the right thing to do. I stood up for us when we've been treated unfairly. I'm sure they'll throw at me that I get sick alot, or something like that, and it'll be hard to defend myself, I'm sure. Someone had to be the one to speak up. Maybe...Right?
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