Small Musing

Sometimes I wonder if Chance and I need to be together forever or if he deserves a better looking girl, one that's fit and can keep up with him in all the stuff he wants to do. Maybe I should leave him and go be a recluse like Emily Dickinson. Or meet a fattie online who is like a big computer nerd and makes $$ cuz I can't have no poor boy. I guess i could get in shape but I can't make myself prettier and he deserves the best, imo. But ya know, I know I'm not the hottest chick ever, but I'm decently comfortable with my body 80% of the time. I'm only insecure whenever I hear Chance comment on a Hawt girl. Outside I'm like 'yeah chick is fine!' but inside I'm like 'omg I'm cool too plz don't leave me!' lol. :(